18/06/19 - The Waterside Pool, Ryde

I am trying to get back into swimming again. R bought me a 6 month membership and I've hardly used it. I feel terrible because I hate wasting money and I believe the water workouts and early morning swims really help my mood as well as helping to keep my weight down. So all in all, I know that getting down to the pool is a really good thing for me and therefore I need to get back into a routine. Unfortunately in the time since I last visited, the timetable has changed. This caused me to have a massive stress this morning trying to find the bravery to go down for a swim during a different session. It was a real challenge and I did have to battle with myself. But I did go in the end...yay! As soon as I entered the pool and started swimming I knew it was going to be tricky for me due to it being a Lanes Session and me not having swam for 5 weeks! I was slower than usual and it was hard to keep up the pace! In my head I just kept saying to myself 'But I'm here! I'm here!' and that was an achievement in itself. I even braved the sauna for a short while after my swim! The issue for me there is that there are often other people who will want to talk! I'm just not up for that at all. I like to keep myself to myself and I am most relaxed when I'm deep in my own thoughts. Conversations stress me out! I know that these little challenges are good for me and I can do it...it's just not easy!