(19/05/19) - MHAW - Quotes for today...

"You know you're Borderline when you fluctuate between fearing abandonment and encouraging it."

Sometimes it is very difficult to experience the pain of a MH condition and it is hard to open up to others and be honest about what you are going through. With BPD I personally feel that it is such a hard thing to cope with that I can't deal with anything else. Which means pushing other people away. It is all consuming and zaps all of my energy.

"At any given moment we have 2 choices: to step forward into growth or to step back into safety."

I am an incredibly private person. It is totally out of character for me to open up about how my illness afffects me and my family. I will be honest and say that I have doubted whether I can actually do a Blog at all, given that I don't feel particularly comfortable sharing the details of my life. But this week is an important week for me because if I can't talk about my mental health diagnosis in mental health awareness week then when can I? It is important to stop the stigma and therefore I have '...stepped forward' as Maslow would have said, rather than hiding myself and my thoughts away as my BPD would have liked me to. It isn't easy but I am doing it.