(17/05/19) - MHAW - Quote for today...

"One of the worst parts of BPD is knowing you're being irrational and mean but you literally can't stop yourself (from lashing out) then when you've calmed down...the GUILT kicks in."

I am very aware of this feeling, as I always have an awareness of my words, even in the heat of the moment...and yet I say them anyway. It is not pleasant to live with and that goes for everybody involved; both the BPD person and those close to them. Sadly, this is another symptom of the illness and something non-sufferers must find hard to comprehend. It genuinely is something out of our control. If we were able to stop ourselves then presumably we wouldn't have BPD brains!